Body was slightly sore upon waking up this morning. Yoga did not work out today, I turned to cardio instead. I plugged in the earphone, set the volume up to the highest to block out everything and everyone else. Then, I ran. I imagined myself on this long stretch of road, and with every step I take, I imagine leaving parts of my life behind. Music is my escapism. Music is the one thing I turn to when I'm feeling nothing or when I'm feeling everything.   It's been a long day...

Today, i bore witness to a kind of weakness. This only serves to emphasise on the fact that I have already known since the first emotional cut I received; Each and every one of us are hypocrites. On the surface, we all seem like cheerful bubbly personalities. We all lead happy lives, we smile. On the surface, everything is all fine and dandy, we all love each other to bits, we appear to be saints. But what isn't visible to the naked eye, are the currents running underneath it all. &...

Right now I'm sitting in the library, watching Cecilia sleep with earphones plugged into her ears, in front of her laptop. And I realised that I could very well do the same, just shove my laptop fowards and rest my head on the table for a power nap. Or I could just hike home and sleep, right now. But that won't do me any good, it wont set my biological clock straight. Not right. And the only other thing keeping me from sleeping is my gastritis. It has successfully become a part of my life. ...

Most of the time, people make decisions based on huge aspects, based on solid big reasons or effort. I make decisions by observation. I notice the little little things people do or dont do. This drives me to make my decision or choice. And now over time, I noticed the little things, and I have subconsciously been driven to make my choice. I'm a very observant person. I'm very aware of my surroundings, I have this thing where I know what people are thinking. I know what they are thinking I kn...

I am now on my new laptopp, so I can finally log into my private domain. It’s been awhile, and I needed to do this, I needed to type, I needed to acknowledge this carved emptiness inside me. No matter what I do, I seem to never be able to escape this. This unseen nightmare, which haunts me relentlessly and I have a bad feeling that it will just bog me down someday. I’ve been back here, for about a week now, and returning to KL to continue the semester in about two days. Two day...

I have a very fiery inner core. I'm more of the strong and silent type. When I'm pissed, I don't talk. I don't talk. At all. And if I'm driven and being forced to talk, it will erupt in hurtful and mean words, with biting sarcasm and dripping venom. And most of the time, I don't even mean what I say. But sometimes, there's just so much in-built anger that I just take it all in, and pretend that I'm fine, and one day, inevitably, I will snap. Yes, Yes I know that that's not right bu...

I seriously think that I should stick a huge sign saying "Stupid Moron" on my forehead. Because I really believe that I am. I am here, in the Media Hub because of reasons which I do not want to explain again, frozen half to death with a fever to boot. Oh and feeling like a great big fool. Yesterday, I missed 2 classes in the morning because I was knackered and the fever was drowning me. I almost couldnt see straight. But I got up, and I made it for ICG in the afternoon anyways, and I me...

Today, I decided to join E, S & C to practice their Photoshop skills for ICG tmr after their CTR exam today. I'm grateful, knowing that S kinda understands my predicament, and that E & C, are at least talking to me. And not in the stilted awkward manner, in the.. I don't know, I guess it would be what you call normal. So after that, I was supposed to go to ss15, meet up with N, and just hang about for awhile, catch up and talk. But she had an appointment, and I said that I'd just wait...

"At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, it’s usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we’ve chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them. The people that are still with you at the end of the day, those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close c...

Your view on yourself: You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.  The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for: You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true. (this is unfortunately true. very much unfortunately.) Your readiness to commit to a relationship:...

I love Made Of Honor. I have always loved that show, and I never get sick of watching it. Partly because I love Patrick Dempsey, and I love Michelle Monaghan. and partly because the story tugs my heart. I've always loved the concept of having a guy best friend. I have always loved one. I've always wanted one, without getting involved with him. But on the other hand, I love the idea of falling in love with my best friend. I mean, if you're gonna fall in love, why not someone close ...

I hate this. I hate it, I hate it so much when people abuse or misuse the word love. I do, I really do. I hate it when people go around spewing “I love you”s to others, not knowing what it holds, not knowing what it means, not knowing the significance and the beauty behind it. They just say it because they think that oh you know, she’s my girlfriend and so I must say it to her or she thinks I don’t care and vice versa. THAT IS STUPID. IT’S BEYOND STUPID. not to m...

Last night, I dreamt about H, again. I get so bothered, when I dream about him, because I don’t understand why. I don’t understand why do I dream about him so often. Like in last night’s case, I dreamt that he talked to me, we kinda made our peace and patched things up, and we were talking again. I dreamt that he understood, and that he was there to keep his promise of being my best friend, no matter what happens . You know, when he actually said those words, I believed him...

I had in a way, a normal day. I learnt alot today, and it's like I've just been dunked in a tub of ice cold water. Today, I had kinda like a heart-to-heart thing with Ms Natasha. She's Malaysian, but was in US for quite awhile so she has like an accent and she's really hip, very open minded, very understanding about my situation. She didn't treat me like a teenager who is just having a theatrical episode. She's very proactive, so she came up with alot of cool ideas, like ...

Hello first post ever here to be typed on a Macintosh ! I am now in the iLab @ Media Hub. And I am kinda in awe. I guss I can understand where does all the hype about Apple computers, MacBooks and the iFamily come from. It truly is swanky, if you  think about it ! Anyways it only is because for this half an hour or so, this hugeass screen and FANTASTIC RESOLUTION & DEFINITION IS ALL MINE. But I kinda can’t post up a photo of how it looks like cos apparently the Mac...