I had in a way, a normal day.

I learnt alot today, and it's like I've just been dunked in a tub of ice cold water.

Today, I had kinda like a heart-to-heart thing with Ms Natasha. She's Malaysian, but was in US for quite awhile so she has like an accent and she's really hip, very open minded, very understanding about my situation. She didn't treat me like a teenager who is just having a theatrical episode. She's very proactive, so she came up with alot of cool ideas, like programmes and events to be held in campus, like fashion shows, charity drives and such, and she asked me to like, be part of it, fascilitate (did i get this right) and I think tha's really good cos like now I've got a purpose manzzzzzz. She's very cool, she worked for CLEO, she had her own designing studio, and she's very.. diplomatic. I love her. I think I will learn so much so much more than just IMMW.

Mr Winston was.. odd. He seemed very distanced though, and he looked and talked to me like.. I was just essentially bullshitting. Cos I asked him about the mid terms thing, and how do I cope with the rest in time for mid term, and he was like, "Um. I see. Okay." And he said he could exempt me from this mid term but.. I don't know, he had a very skeptical tone, it made me highly uneasy, and I didnt know what to say in the end. I just told him that, I'm okay, and that I'm still trying to cope and stuff. And.. it was just very awkward, uncomfortable, and uneasy. And I thought that he understood. I guess I thought wrong.

Mr Edward was worse. I was knocking on his door, and nobody was in. And then Ms Karam walks out, and I turned away but she caught me, and said "You wanna see Mr Edward right" then she gestured to him, and he walked to me, and I greeted him and we were right in the middle of the staff room, right in the middle, behind the main door, in front of Mr Winston's room. The first thing he asked me was "You didn't come for my class, why." .....Okay first things first, I was stunned and shocked into silence, I actually didnt know how to speak. I just gestured with my hands, I wanted to ask him if we could speak somewhere else because I wasnt comfortable speaking for the whole staff room to hear. Then I eventually said "Um I have this condition-" when he cut me off, and said "so what you want to do for your mid term." ....Again, flabbergasted. I tried to explain what Mr Winston & Ms Natasha is doing for me, but he kinda smirked like it was a stupid idea, and said "No you cant do it that way." And then I said that I understand that this class is based mostly on Photoshop, and I'm pretty nifty at it. And he again he scoffed, and he said that what i know may not be what i learn in class. which I totally agree with. And the went on to say, that It's a practical exam,  I have to learn the skills, I have to be there to know how to sit for the exam. And there was nothing else I could say but okay. So he said that he'd discuss with Ms Karam (which I might add, wasn't pleased, at all, when she saw me. If looks could kill.....) and he'd email me. And then when I got back, I received an email from him, telling me to sit for my mid terms, and that he'd discuss my first assignment with me when I see him in the next class.

For a day that started of so fantastically and pumped up, I was significantly de-pumped by the end of the day.

But I guess I still have alot to look forward to.

Thank god for family, support pillars and people who have faith in you. Thank god for Ms. Natasha & Serene, really.

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It has been a good day for myself.
After I had a meeting with all my 3 lecturers on what do I do with my classes, exams and subjects, I headed back home.
I sat down, took a break, and breathed.
Checked my mail, pulled on my Nudies which I think I'm starting to love (fyi, when I first got it, I couldn't fit into for nuts. That was how fat I got.)
Pulled on my 5 inch wedges just for the heck of it even though I look like an ostrich when I walk in 'em, and went out.

I went to the Post Office first, sent out all my packages, which took about.. one hour or so.
Then I ran to the cinema, bought one movie ticket for New In Town by Renee Zellwanger for myself. I got a couple seat. By myself. RM 8.
It was a good movie, it made me laugh, and btw, Renee Zellwanger looked nothing like Renee Zellwanger. Botox much ?
Then on an impulse, I decided to buy the fedora I've been eyeing for about a month or so. And new shades.
Because I do not have anymore, I lost my last one and only pair, the previous two were broken by some people.
I also FINALLY FINALLY got a pair of flip flops/thongs. I wore out my last pair so badly it tore into half. :/
I loved, walking around shopping malls alone. I find it.. therapeutic for some reason.
I can go at my own pace, buy whatever I want, eat whatever I want, and not having to bother if other people minded.
Sometimes it's good to do this, sometimes, we need it.
For me, it's sort of a way where I spend some time with myself.

But honestly, if you really want me to have a good time, drop me off somewhere quiet with lush green grass with a clear sky, not sunny because I don't really fancy the sun, with a picnic basket filled with proper food, and a good book. I can sit there, and not budge forever. But seeing as there is no such place here in corrupted KL, I just have to make do with materialistic needs. I don't know about you guys, but whenever I shop right, after that I'd feel so guilty. Like I didn't do anything to deserve shopping for stuff, so what the hell am I doing, shopping here like this ?! But after awhile, I'd settle down, and learn to love my stuff

Oh and btw, I offically have the best lecturer on Earth. She makes me wanna be her.

I'm actually really sleepy right now, and I'm also hungry, so I'd best get to sleep.

Yawn. Goodnight folks.